KeriCat

She loves with no mercy, She dreams herself to sleep, Only to cry herself awake. She wishes she could open her soul, To a man who took her heart. Her memory of him is barely alive, Almost nothing remains. All she knows, remembers of him, Are words on a screen, The aches of her heart, And a fading image, Composed by the word, And the fancies of her mind. She is losing her worth as a person, If you could ever even consider her that. An enemy to herself, One which she runs from, driven by fear. But everyone knows it's hopeless. She'll never escape. And yet, in the fading mists of time, Is her love, a damned one, Remaning una

=- Realization of Freedom -= Inside I know, I cannot be what I want to be for you, Because there's no fooling the heart that already knows, I was not for you, I love you still, Always will. But I guess I'm free, Though you still mean everything to me, And I will Never Let go. Always remember, You're forever another peice of my puzzled whole...

What God do you believe in? None. Why not? I need something real. Why? Because I know that there can never be doubt in whats real. Whats real? The sun and its warmth, A smile, Friends, The man I love... How do you know? My heart told me. The way my skin tingles, it tells me. Are you sure? I don't know. You souded sure. I know. How can you be sure when you dont know? Belief I guess... Faith. What does that have to do with it? It makes us strong. Who's us? What and who anyone loves and believes in. Loving someone/something makes the lover and loved strong. Why? I don't know... Again? Yes. Oh.. Yeah. But why? With not k

When I was younger I used to daydream all the time. It satisfied the cravings reality couldn't, and in the end made millions more. No longer do these cravings be quenched by dreams or ideals, for what i seek now has to be real. Real... what is "real"? I know my emotions are the warmthy of skin and the softness of ones breath........ but how do you really know? if your friends aren't just your imagination or you theirs..... Are we alive or dead? I know we think we're alive but who's to say? And even though the strong mint on my tongue should be proof, I still dont know... it could be all one screwed up dimension maybe. Even as I ponder thes

=- RAINING TEARS -= In the cool of the eve, Rain beats down on me, Whispering of tales, Whispering of lies and deceit, Of secrets I keep, And uncried tears. And behind me, Feet forever pounding, As I run uselessly from the pursuance of my dreams, What bring sanity to the insane, And the death of the sane. Choking up blood, Spitting through swollen ways, In a scarlet trench, Dug in an unknown dimension, The dimension of ones heart and mind, I cannot help but wonder, Where I went wrong… And with all my tears, I cry, Hoping to break free from the shackles binding our minds. And so in my bustle of emotions, Thrown into the

RESTLESS I'm restless tonight, In body and in heart. If my heart could walk, it'd pace the world in an hour, If it could talk, it'd weep, All the red tears it has to give, Weeping down and through what it will touch. For without a hand firmly clasped around mine, Preferably yours, I'm good to no one. Restless as I am, My wit is slow, And no thoughts of my own, With a thudding in my heart, At every shadow with your face, Where we could stay together, In the warmth of the cold, The shadows in which none have been told, A kind of reverie, over you and me, Across the sea, the search shall not cease, I need your name and t

=- BREAKING, BROKEN. -= Torment me, Hate me, Like you've always done. Hurt me, Kill me, Like you've always wanted. Spare me the words, And the speech, For what my heart cannot take, Because I know what you're trying to do, Trying to break. I don't want to yet, But even so I'm compelled to you, To love you in a blinding manner, Where I'm blind of what's under my nose, And your blind of all the actions I do, Just for you, And forever, Only you. Take my hand, And bind me up, So I will be no lovers fool, Because lover I must be, And fool I shall not. And with you a Fool I am, There for your pleasure to toss at your whim.

=- INVISIBLE SONGS -= Glad to see the last of the sun on the horizon, I lay down in an imaginary Lovers arms, Knowing that all to soon its going to be, A new day colder than today. And even though I lay in the warmth, Of a shining moon, That gives the warmth of my minds charmer, I lay and watch again for the sun to rise, a dark dreary thing, Taking away the cool bliss of night, To the hells and demons called day. For no matter where I walk, I will not be seen, No matter what I do, It'll never be registered... Yet as I truck on, My heart is beaten and stirred, By the looks looking after me... The looks of disgust, and hat

=- SOULFUL EYES -= Every doubt that ever graced my mind, Dissapears in the crease of your smile, The sound of your laugh, And the words of your soul. Your body filled to the brim with love and wisdom, Makes it glow like a bright night star that competes with the sun and moon, Your words that pour into my heart, Fill my eyes with tears. Every smile on your face, And every tear in your eye, Is something I cherish deep in my heart. Without you I'd have lost faith in me a long time ago, Without you, I'd never have grown, Without you, I'd forget to live, Forget to Love and Forget to appreciate, What I've never known I had. Yo

=- BETRAYAL -= I was betrayed today, My heart, My soul. A secret that you shouldn't know, Was known. My trust betrayed, That I wish didn't have to break, Was shattered like a scream piercing the silence. I had known you all my life, And I thought I could trust you. I trusted you damnit! I did.... And I hear you backstab all your friends... I was there when you wanted to die, I offered to hold you in my warm arms, Just so you wouldn't go alone, Even though it would've burned a hole in my soul. And now when you try to break me, Again and again, I'll know never to leave you with my trust alone, Because I was betrayed tod

Hold my hand just one last time though you are no longer mine Let me keep this fantasy one last time before they see once they know we are no more they will take you of this, I'm sure so hug me hard and kiss my cheek I'll try my best not to weep Just one more time for first love's sake and you can leave before I wake just one last talk, and one last smile one last laugh, and one last trial one last kiss, and one last wink you'll be gone before I blink I thank you for this final chance to fake a normal, safe romance and in the morning tears will fall and I'll pray to God that you will call b